6 months

Psalm 91:1-2 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High  will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.^[a] I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

 

 

6th months came before we knew it. Urologist requested sonogram of kidney. He ,also, recommended deflux (surgery to correct  ureters and prevent the urine backing up into the kidney). His goal was to get his reflux down to a grade II. The visit was short and to the point. He reminded me of the need for transplant in the future," The nephrologist should have more information on that. In the meantime let's keep praying", he said.

 

I hated these visits! No matter how much I tried living outside this terrible ordeal I was reminded of as soon I stepped outside my home. Fear paralyzed me.

Prayers flooded my home. I prayed day and night. I woke up praying and went to sleep praying. I'd wake up in the middle of the night praying.  I had others pray for us. I requested prayers from healing rooms, from churches in other states, and I continue asking for prayers til this day.

For a while,  I wanted to live in a God bubble where all was lovely and without fear. I wanted to wake up from the nightmare I had woken up to 5 months before. I read books on miracles, on the holy spirit, my bible. I recited Psalm 91 over and over. I declared my child healed and I still do. I couldn't get enough of God. I wanted him all the time and am certain I could not have made it out of that depressing pit without him. "“He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”
I begged for mercy.  I begged for a 2nd kidney.


Deflux: scheduled for May 7.